thesinger
thelyrics
thechords
themelody
foryou
you're
my song.
it's been so long.
i never had a chance to play this for you.
cos everytime the music starts,
i always cannot go with the tune.
and then you went away,
now the lyrics seem to stray.
so how can i not love you?
when i live just for you.
you took away the heart in me,
that once beat in harmony.
now, i am torn apart,
feeling unemotional somehow.
sometimes, i can't help but cry.
i miss the way we used to be.
and the sad part,
the song i made,
is just a music that will fade.
but everythingmeans nothing.
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
Well.. I've been rather busy with my assignments and projects.. There's one due this Friday and also a test on Firday.. I think I will only study the test this Thursday. Juz came back form school not long ago.. stayed back a couple of hours to tabulate my MR project survey results.. Halfway through.. some of my grp members went off.. So in the end left only Doreen, Zhiting and Me~ We were like kinda tired.. especially keying in for the last few results.. we like so dead like that. And Yapz.. we stayed till the lab closes... It's been a long time I've used SPSS.. luckily still can rememebr alittle.. so not so bad.. Lolz.. I really miss going out.. It's beena long time I really go out and "gai gai". Everyday is school and home. The next few weeks is going to be hell for me I guess.. Oh Yah~~ Meli! Congrates on passing ur driving test!! Hehez.. HapPy fOr yEa!
if i ain't got you|6:35 PM|
Sunday, March 28, 2004
Hey hey~~~ Yesterday evening.. went to Jovin's Birthday Party--> held a bbq over at her grandma's place. Yapz.. Saw alot of familiar faces.. It's kinda great to see them again. Ate only abit.. dunnoe wads wrong with my appetite. Then at about 9 plus..sweet Darling managed to come down from his work place and he got me some bo lo buns(my fav).. lolz.. yapz.. then my friends wanted to chill over at Clarke Quay.. I was tempted to go.. but then again.. I felt sianz.. coz it's kinda far for me.. Also.. I dunnoe how to break the news to my mum that I will be going clubbing? My cousins actually went clubbing yesterday too.. but then they said I wasn't at home and they weree rushing there.. so hahaa... missed another trip..
I though I could sleep in till late this morning.. until about 10 plus.. my mother rang me and told me that we are going to "Sao(3) Mu(4)" at 12 pm.. arghz.. I reluctanly got out form bed. When I went there.. the weather was so hot.. (and now it is raining.. WTH).. when I offered some joss sticks.. I accidently burned myself.. luckily no scar.. then we went to burn some incense paper.. ahahz.. the smoke was so great that some of us had tears in our eyes~ It comes automatically.. it's fun though~ After that went to my cousin's hse and had lunch.. those we had offered to our ancestors.. I was very tired.. so after that I went home to sleep and I've juz woke up. Oh yah.. My cousin Ah Keng has a dog.. His name Richie.. very cute. This is his pic-->
My bruise is getting worst..Lolz.. but luckily the Doc told me beforehand.. it would get worst.. so nothing to worry about.. But it's ugly.. Yucks. Then my cousin Rong Rong kept teasing me that it's a love bite given by my bf.. Hhahaz.. if it's really a love bite.. by bf would be very violent already.. hahahazz..
I've came across this message and I found it so true... I am dedicating to those ppl who gave up love.
When someone breaks your heart, it teaches you
that loving
someone does not always mean that the person
will love you
back. But don't turn your back on love, because
when you find
the right person, the joy that one person brings
you will make
up for all of your past hurts. Times a thousand
fold.
if i ain't got you|5:19 PM|
Saturday, March 27, 2004
It comes so naturally... so fast.. and when I want it to go away... it won't budge.. Arghz.. I hate this phase of my school semester.. Many drama-mama stuff will appear.. Now.. I feel that what I've contributed in my project is this small--> |-| I don't know.. but although it's this small.. I might not have the ability to complete it.. Too bad lahz.. I am that programming sort.. But then I do hope that after when I complete my part.. I can help.. If possible.. I shall juz do my best.. This time is really chionging period.. So.. dun disturb me!! Otherwise I bite U.. LOLZ! Oh yah.. anyway.. the "it" I was referring above is my "stress". Yea.. that's all folks.. till we meet again and I'll shall pour my sorrows.. about the damn freaky projects..
if i ain't got you|9:45 AM|
I don't know what is going through my head.. I feet so lost suddenly. I hope I am not thinking too much.. Let's pray that tomorrow will be a better day.
I Love U Darling.
if i ain't got you|1:29 AM|
Friday, March 26, 2004
Heya!! Now in the computer lab.. doing nothing.. Dun have XML Spy in my computer.. so can't do my project.. I prefer doing it at home U see.. Lolz. Tomorrow I will have the whole day to do.. I hope I can can make it to Jovin's birthday party bahz. I've already drew up my time-table as wad part of codings I am suppose to do for the next of whole week.
I went ot the donation blood drive today.. Yes! First time donated blood.. Hehezz.. kind of feeling anxious.. But then BIG disappointment in the end. When the blood was like flowing into the packet.. the flowing suddenly stopped.. A few minutes passed.. and a nurse was attenind to me at the same time found it weird as why my blood stopped flowing.. My heart actually raced.. coz I tot smthing had happen. Well.. In the end.. both of us realised that I had a blood clot. Yucks! I've actually seen it.. Hahahz.. and Yah.. swollen~ Doc says might have a bruise for the next one week. Well... Sianz.. have to apply medicine. Donated only abit less than a half packet.. maybe they are juz going to throw away.. Arghz.. alot of my blood is wasted.. Lolz.. Darling, on the other hand.. his first time donating blood too, but it went very smoothly.. His blood flows pretty fast.. Although I was ahead of him by 1 person.. but he still finished earlier than me.. Well.. now having the damn big plaster on my right hand which makes my movement very er.. difficult.. Hahz.. Alright.. but then conclusion.. I will still try to donate blood!! Hehez.. It is fun! And when it clots again next time.. well.. I think it's fate.. And so be it then!
if i ain't got you|2:40 PM|
Thursday, March 25, 2004
Darling N I found a way to relieve stress.. Playing UNO STACKO!!! Lolz!!!
if i ain't got you|11:17 PM|
Yawnz... sleepy.. juz tired to complete another small part of my project.. Haiz.. it's been tiring for me these few days and I have been taking napz.. not that I want to.. but I am really dead exhausted.. wonder how am I going to survive till exams? Tomorrow.. in fact.. later in the afternoon.. I will have to show my codings to Dr Tan.. hope that it's up to his expectations.. anyway it's only 10%? Dun be so stingy lahz.. i seriously need that 10%.. I think everybody does~ Aftr tomorrow.. can relax a bit liao bahz... I think.. hehehezz..
if i ain't got you|1:50 AM|
Monday, March 22, 2004
When I stepped into my dorrstep, I was suddenly so drained out.. luckily I juz had a shower.. and it perks me up alittle.. but it doesn't make any difference anyway. I stayed up in school till 10 PM and went to the nearst 7-Eleven store with Darling to fill up my supplies.. Well.. I need THEM to keep me awake when I am doing my projects and I feel that this is fun.. Hahahz.. After buying.. took Darling home and stayed for a while under his void deck to have a short chat with him. It's like we were toking about the past like how we feel about each other from the start till now.. well.. It's really magical I would say.. Maybe everything is fated? I juz had my dinner.. full... thought of like do my codings later.. but then.. I really feel tired and I really can't concentrate. Tomorrow might be going to school early.. although I do not have classes tomorrow.. but I guess I will be in school to do my coding.. Haiz..Didn't want to do at home.. coz couldn't get any help, furthermore the BED is very tempting.. Arghzzz.. maybe tomorrow going Bishan again to do survey.. Long day tomorrow...
if i ain't got you|11:38 PM|
Sunday, March 21, 2004
Wad a day to start off.... I had a slight fever yesterday.. and now I am having a flu. I have started off with my project and so far.. alright lo.. have errors here and there.. maybe tomorrow going back to school and ask my class experts like Benji and Darling. Meeting my best buds later, to watch a movie "My Girl". I wonder after this movie.. when will be the next time I will be watching a movie.. Maybe after the project submission? It's like week 16-17? Now I can already forsee myself staying back in school everyday to do my coding.. like the past.. up till 9 plus 10. Tomorrow will be my FIRST day doing that.. hope there's available computer that it.. coz it's like those part-time students will take up the computer labs..then sianz lo like that..
Guess my this sem results going to go downhill alot.. looking at my ICA results.. I sianz.. no drive to score well. Happy-go-lucky I guess..
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if i ain't got you|12:07 PM|
Saturday, March 20, 2004
Well... So tired~ Last night, Darling, Ben and Ben's girl (Serene) stayed over at my hse~ And Hey! We were doing our project. Yapz. Is like we have 2 assignments to hand in which involves coding. Well.. these few days I have to spend lotsa and lotsa time in front of my computer. My computer might be my 2nd bf then.. Lolz~ Well.. project which involes coding is very troublesome. What takes out most of our time it's the debugging part. U know the logic there, juz that U have to translate them in codes and the codes have to be PERFECT, juz one letter missing, everything is wrong~ You can't run the program at all. U might be surprised that your typo error might not be found even when the project is due. And even a "whitespace" for ASP can make a difference! So I feel that I.T projects is far more difficult and tedious than any other projects. That's why U can see to develop a software or program.. it takes years to complete and it's worth lots of money. Later, I am trying to complete my ASP part of the project, hope I can finish then~ Then later I can meet Darling for dinner and meet the girls tomorrow for a movie or ktv.
Ah yes.. yesterday after school ended, Darling, Ben and me went to Junction 8 and did our MR project--> Giving out surveys. It sux I can say.. Hahahzzz.. It's not an easy task afterall.. Some ppl dunnoe how to read instructions. Wrote there clearly for them also dunnoe. -_-" Oh yah.. saw Cheng Kwee in J8.. asked him to do survey too.. Lolz..
*P/S: We hate coding~~ but we love pair programming! Lolz... (By Darling & Me)
if i ain't got you|9:54 AM|
Friday, March 19, 2004
I HAVE A STRONG DISLIKE FOR U!
(I can't say 'hate'--> coz 'hate' involve feelings.)
I don't wanna be mean... but I juz can't help it. I juz don't like you. I don't wanna hear ur name anymore and I don't wanna see your face!
Haha.. guess I am too stressed up~ LOLz!
if i ain't got you|2:27 AM|
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
Alright.. guess I am stressing up soon. Juz now when I took a nap, I dreamt of myself coding some stuff and images of codes keep appearing into my vision~ This reminds me of what had happen to me last semester, coz practically every night, I will be dreaming this kinda stuff and the weird thing is wadever computer language I am doing for the the semester, the dreams happen to be the same codes I am learning. It's XML now of coz. This is shit... Next week I have to submit a small demo of my part in my project. Today had a project discussion and realised that there's lots to do.. XML files, CCS, XSLT etc.. Luckily next week there's no written test and all I have to do is to concentrate this project part. This reminds me on Saturday again, suppose to go out wiht my good buds, but then dunnoe if I can make it.. And I suddenly rememebred that I have to start on my MR project too.. haiz.. have to go out and give surveys. This is sianZ x 1000!!!
Dunnoe why.. having constant stomach-ache today..
if i ain't got you|6:12 PM|
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
I've juz finished browsing through my friends' bloggers and most of them.. consists stories with tears and heartache. Well, I guess sadness is like a virus.. it spreads far and wide. Well, I am kinda affected too. Yes, I am still happy with Darling, but I'm worried about smthing else.. I tried to be as happy as possible, try not to think about it but I begin to realise that the more I hold down my sadness, the more sad I feel and I'm afraid that I couldn't hold much longer. Darling will be there for me I'm sure, but I didn't want to worry him that much and I feel that problems like this.. only I can solve it myself.. coz it's mainly psychological~ Sometimes I juz can't help it..
Well, enough for those sad stuff.. I am going to enjoy tomorrow.. I hope.
On Sunday afternoon, my mother suggested to go Orchard and I agreed, coz anyway I would be meeting Darling for dinner.. My mother got to know and she asked me to invite him for dinner over at Marché (I didn't initiate it!). I didn't get to tell him, coz his HP wasn't with him when he worked.. so I only can tell him on the spot. When I told him, he was kinda embarrassed by the fact that my mother is treating him a dinner. Well, he SHOULD feel honoured.. lolz.. He knows why.. Many funny things happeneduring the dinner~ Lolz.. too tired to type anyway.. Anyway, I was kinda glad that my mother has accepted Darling~ No doubts this time. I guess my life will be easier this way too.. I dun have to lie anymore.
if i ain't got you|1:28 AM|
Sunday, March 14, 2004
Well.. the morning trip is off~ So that's why I slept till 10 plus? Well.. reason being becoz I slept at about 3am in the morning. Although the morning trip is off, I might be going out shopping with my mother and sis later.. and after that I will juz go and meet Darling at about 6 plus.. Shall wait till he let off work then will go home with him... Managed to finish wad I planned to finish.. Phew! Anyway.. I've realised that there's many things to do later on in the week. I need to start my coding soon and also.. Survey qesutions for my MR project!! Arghz.. I've yet to do my part and the meeting is tomorrow!! Lolz.. Should be able to crap smthing out ba! I've lotsa things to buy.. Printer ink, undergarments(oOpz) and morE!
Today embarks my first month anniversary with Darling~ I don't wanna say too much.. later U ppl say I mushy again~~ Lolz.. Happy 1st Mth Anniversary My Darling!! I Love Ya!
if i ain't got you|2:21 PM|
Saturday, March 13, 2004
Yea! Juz finished my Online Résumé~ I juz copy and paste from the Biz Com and IPP résumé which I had done earlier on.. It was alright~~ I spent more time on my template.. LOlz.. Anyway, after I've done my revison for Prac Test and did my XMP Prac 9, I went to take a nap.. At least now I am not so stired.. Juz that now every night about this time.. I will get lethargic. At about 5pm.. I left home and went to meet Darling at his worksplace.. So MAny PPl~~ Ya.. Orchard Point~ Grand Opening today.. heheh.. Only met him for about an hour (for dinner)? Then I went back home... ON my way home.. I saw Jovin!! Hehez... so coincidence, with her beau.. I think his name is Jun Bin or smthing.. hehezz.. Yapz.. And when I asked my mother to pick me up at about 7.15pm.. she was kinda surprised why I reach home so early today.. so "guai(1)".. Hahahzzz.. then I told her I juz went out for dinner that's all. And when I reached home.. I went straight into my résumé, feel kinda accomplished. Tomoorrow is going to be a full day for me.. Maybe in the morning going out with my mother and grandma (with some other relatives I suppose) to eat.. Yapz.. and maybe after that I go into my Mobile Applications studying or XML (need to do some serious reading up) and in the evening go to Darling's workplace and join him for dinner again.. Next weekend, I don't think I can join him for dinner already.. coz he said he will be working at tampines and he dun wanna me to travel so far.. Well.. Maybe join him for breakfast then.. or might not be metting him at all.. Don't know lahz.. see how it goes.. =Bah!=
if i ain't got you|9:56 PM|
I came across a nice song over the radio yesterday.. well.. of coz I don't wish anyone will sing that to me! lolx~ That will be bad..
Anyone Of Us (Stupid Mistake)
Written by Jorgen Elofsson/ Per Magnusson/ David Kreuger
I've been letting you down, down
Girl I know I've been such a fool
Giving in to temptation
I should have played it cool
The situation got out of hand
I hope you understand
It can happen to anyone of us
Anyone you think of
Anyone can fall
Anyone can hurt someone they love
Hearts will break
'Cos I made a stupid mistake
It can happen to anyone of us
Say you will forgive me
Anyone can fail
Say you will believe me
I can't take, my heart will break
'Cos I made a stupid mistake
A stupid mistake
She was kind of exciting
A little crazy I should've known
She must have altered my senses
'Cos I offered to walk her home
The situation got out of hand
I hope you understand
It can happen to anyone of us
Anyone you think of
Anyone can fall
Anyone can hurt someone they love
Hearts will break
'Cos I made a stupid mistake
It can happen to anyone of us
Say you will forgive me
Anyone can fail
Say you will believe me
I can't take, my heart will break
'Cos I made a stupid mistake
A stupid mistake
Stupid mistake
She means nothing to me
Nothing to me
I swear every word is true
Don't wanna lose you
The situation got out of hand
I hope you understand
It can happen to anyone of us
Anyone you think of
Anyone can fall
Anyone can hurt someone they love
Oh yeah hearts will break
'Cos I made a stupid mistake
It can happen to anyone of us
Say you will forgive me
Anyone can fail
Say you will believe me
I can't take, my heart will break
'Cos I made a stupid mistake
Anyone can fall
Anyone can hurt someone they love
Oh yeah hearts will break
'Cos I made a stupid mistake
A stupid mistake
*bISh~ This thrashing is for myself. Why? Coz I basically suck at everything!!! Yapz.. I guess I am going on drill today (*I hope?) Work and work and work~ And probably going to Darling's workplace and have dinner with him.. then I will be back home.. work and work again~ Hope that I will successfully finish wad I want today.. I am going to be at my desktop for long today.Anyway, yesterday watched American Idol, the uncut and uncensored version.. there's William Hung! Yapz.. but then this time it's not so funny.. coz I guess he danced more professionally now. Hheez.. She sang "She Bang's" and "Can You Feel the Love Tonight".. Alright bahz.. going to release an album soon.. haha.. *hUngry Arhz~~~
*Anyway.. Happy biRthDay to ShanNen!!!
if i ain't got you|10:45 AM|
Friday, March 12, 2004
Yapz.. we celebrated our First month anniversary on Wednesday, coz Darling has to work on Sunday.. Didn't really do anything much (toO tired after 2 tests on that daY) but to eat at Sakae Sushi again~~ Lolz.. Darling's treat. It's only been a month.. but it seems like I've known and been with him forever, guess this is wad U call "love"? Although I've been seeing him everyday for long hours, but when he is out of my sight, I still feel uneasy and empty, is this wad u call about "missing" someone? When he calls or messages me, I feel happy and my heart races, is he "the one"? I love to look at him when he didn't notice and to me he seems so wonderful in my heart, is like a dream come true also when he smiles at me, my heart melts and I wanna put my arms around him, is this call "crazy in love"? When we kissed, the world seems to revolve only the two of us, is this call "madly in love"? I guess I've given my heart to him and now I am afraid of losing him, now and forever. I've got back the feeling I've lost long long time ago, there's this fire in my heart, blazing hot and how I wish it will never die.
I lay my love on U, that's all I wanna do.
Everytime I breathe I feel brand new....
if i ain't got you|12:40 AM|
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
I seriously need to tune up my life now~ I can't afford to slack anymore.. I have to be back at myself again.. I know that for the past 3 mths.. I am not myself, and I do not want to continue this way anymore. It will take a little time, I guess it's abit late since it's already half of the sem, but it's never too late right? I hope so. I got my MR test result back, I did not do well and yes, I am very disappointed in myself. Darling did well! (Congrates Darling!) Yarz.. and I think for the past few tests.. I can be prepared.. Coz I think I will not do them so well either..
I am eating the Ferrero Rocher Darling had given me and I tot of the sweet love and attention he has given me all this while.. Juz now Darling stayed over my hse pretty late coz we are in some serious discussion about some stuff.. Darling, thank you for being so understanding and thank you for giving me a whole brand new life. I am not wrong to love u so much. I guess, you are really the one for me this time. If I happen to hurt U along the way, I'm really sorry.
THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME (Bon Jovi)
It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
---> Every single word here is out to dedicate for U my Darling.
=.I Love U.=
if i ain't got you|11:38 PM|
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
=.I Miss U Like Crazy.=
I used to call you my girl..
I used to call you my friend.
I used to call you the love...
The love that I never had
When I think of you
I don't know what to do.
When will I see you again
I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you,miss you,miss you
I miss you like crazy
..Solo...>>>
You're all that I want
You're all that I need
(You're all that I need)
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see
that my pain's so real
.When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again
..I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down
When your love's not around.
I miss you,miss you,miss you
I miss you like crazy
.I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you,miss you,miss you
..I miss you like crazy
..I miss you like crazy
..I miss you like crazy
..I miss you like crazy
..I miss you like crazy
if i ain't got you|11:55 PM|
The world is juz too small, dun u agree? I began to realise that one of my Darling's sec school friend was my primary school friend, Johnathan, also.. another of Darling's friend, Benson, happen to be my AJC classmate and juz now.. Darling happened to see his another sec school friend, Jerry and his friend happen to be my school mate (both NYP and NVSS), Wei Qiang. Is like we were all surprised to see each other... wad a coincidence~ Well, I guess everything is really fated. Day by day, both Darling and I are getting freaked out, is like our interests and thinking are so alike! So far, he is the only person who really thinks like me, and including tastes and interest in stuff~ Day by day, we get to understand each other more and day by day, the "alike" list is accumulating~ Well, tomorrow is my OS quiz and Biz Com ICA~ Not really stressed I guess, juz hope that everything will go well, I've done my best anyway. I think wad I worry most is the Biz Com ICA--> INterview. I am afraid that I do not know how to answer those questions.. Hais.. mine starting at 9.15AM, so I think I am gonna reach school at 9AM? Luckily Darling is there to accompany me.. his starting at 9.35AM... Tomorrow might be a day for me to relax then.. coz by then I will clear the test for this week. Yapz.. Next week I will be having 2 tests again, MObile Application Quiz (waD I dread moSt!) and OS Practical Test.. Haiz..~~~ Then there will be more to come then!
*Learn to Love and Dun be afraid to Love. If U fear of giving too much becoz of the fear of getting hurt in the end, means u have no faith in the relationship, in other words, he/she is not wad U are looking for. Go for someone who gives U a feeling that Love never Dies~ maybe then he/ she is the right one you have been searching for in your whole life~
I dunnoe wad am I crapping about, maybe juz getting emotional~
if i ain't got you|10:52 PM|
Monday, March 08, 2004
Its' been really a long day for me. After the one week break, I am finally back to work. It's kinda tough for the start and I am pretty exhausted~ Especially it's a rainy day today! I am finally put my brain into good use. I had 3 rounds of lectures tooday, and I did not really pay attention for that whole 3 lectures, reason being becoz I PRACTICALLY don't know what the lecturers are trying to get at (ToO lOng-winDeD) and basically I am too tired.. For the last lecture of the day, I even slept through~ I was sitting beside Darling and I juz laid on his shoulders. Darling knew that I was really asleep coz his shoulders felt so heavy, sorry Darling~ Hahaz.. I even had a short dream.. can't really rememeber what. Darling and I also made an effort to stay back in school to study for our OS quiz... Well.. it's kinda fruitful anyway~ I reached home about 10pm and ate my dinner, then I went straight on to go through stuff for my interview session this wednesday.. it's an ICA for me anyway.. hahaz.. And I am going to wear formal then. I was reading halfway and I feel asleep again! Oh dear.. I guess I need to rest early today~ Not a good day to work afterall~
if i ain't got you|11:11 PM|
Sunday, March 07, 2004
I guess my mum has already given Darling a pet name--> "Dick".. I am really "LOL" this time... but actually this name sounds cute.. but rather funny too.. especially when ppl say "Hey.. ur Dick hor" Oh God! But I sincerely do hope that my mother will rememebr his name properly this time~ Although she almost got it.. Hahaz.. My mother also laughs when she says the name herself. But anyway.. Darling has won a few more credits from my mother.. hehehzzz.. And my mother actually says "VERY GOOD, that's what you should look in for a boyfriend." I was kinda elated to hear that.. coz last time.. it's hard to tell my mother "My boyfriend this, my boyfriend that." But now, it's totally different.. things are so much easier if ur parents approve of ur relationship. I this throughout this whole week, today is the socalled "most fruitful" day for me.. I started my work about 11 and round up until 3 I guess... then Darling came over and we did a tutorial together.. he couldn't stay long.. becoz my mother wanted to bring my sis, my maid and I for dinner outside.. Now I juz finished up another tutorial.. I guess I left another 2 more... but both of them will only be gone through on Friday... Most importantly is the 2 tests on Wednesday.. I am feeling so exhausted now.. I guess I am going to sleep early tonight~ Oh Yah.. I guess I am going to get a set of Mahjong tiles for my own .. Table without tiles is so weird..Anyway, Thanks UNcle!
if i ain't got you|10:32 PM|
Hi! I juz came back from my class bbq~ Darling sent home and now I guess he is on his way home bah~ Well.. I should start from late last night~ at about 1 plus.. my friends and I decided to go for supper.. and guess wad? We went to Changi Airport! Lolz.. went to Burger Kings.. ate the breakfast there.. coz they were serving breakfast at that period of time~ So weird.. eating our breakfast in the wee hours. Ha! Then we were like chatting away.. and laughing away.. hehe.. felt so good.. although it is like in the late night.. I dun feel tired. Then I think we only reached my home about 4am? Yapz.. then we juz settled into bed.. but we didn't sleep immediately of coz~ We crapped lotsa "corny jokes".. LOlz~ Actually wanted the guys to sleep at the 3rd level guest room, but then.. they seem so reluctant.. Hahhazz.. so Yan Rong, Lindy, Frederick, Darling and me all slept in my room.. I rememebr the first guy who stayed over at my hse is Benji.. and now is Frederick and Darling.. and my parents didn't really complain at all. We joked until we slept~ Then we woke up about 12.30PM the next day? yazp.. didn't know we were so tired.. Then we lazed around.. watched TV, cracked more jokes, ate lunch and tok more again~ Time passed so fast and it's already 4.30PM! Oh boy.. was suppose to meet my poly friends at 5.30PM --> Bukit Gombak MRT Control Station (for the class bbq). Then by the time when I took all of them home.. it's already 5.30PM! Yapz.. so I rushed to bathe and get ready.. met Darling at 6PM-->YCK MRT.. then both of us reached there about 6.45PM. Sorry Son! Didn't mean to be late.. Yapz.. The food were so tempting.. juz I was really too hungry arhz~ Ate alot.. very full.. also bought some alcoholic drinks.. felt "high" alittle juz now.. But now~~ Betta! On the way home.. Darling and I toked about certain things which made us understand each other more.. Guess that if we really truely love a person.. you won't mind about his/her past.. er.. do you? Well... you guys have to really ponder about that.. Darling was saying.. this relationship of ours is to have a new beginning of life, for the both of us.. and I agree to that. Also.. Darling asked me why do I have to tell him about my past..even though he don't ask me. I told him.. I feel that there's a need to do that, coz he's my boy. Well, hope that everything goes well for the both of us then.=) Mr Ho, Our Personal Mentor went to the bbq too and he was saying, not easy to have relationships in class or same working place.. in case if any thing happens (touch wood) we still have to face each other everyday~ coz basically we are in the same class. I agree to certain extend.. and Mr Ho gave a real life example about his colleagues. He said his colleagues broke up and the girl wanted to resign. Guys normally think that it's unnecessary, but that girl wanna avoid the guy and dun wanna see him anymore.. well.. I guess guys and girls have different thinking.. Hahaz.. and we also chatted about marriages and stuff.. Lolz.. So funny. Well.. I guess that's for all.. School starting on Monday..
To Lindy, Yan Rong and Celeste: Hey guys.. thanks for all the laughter and joy~ Never enjoy myself so much for a very long time!! Hehez.. I know we will all be busy after this holidays but then.. I guess we will meet up quite soon!! Till we meet again! Miz Ya! Muackz!
if i ain't got you|12:06 AM|
Friday, March 05, 2004
YuHoo~~ It's so early in the night.. my friends are playing mahjong.. and why am I doing here? Haiz.. I juz dun feel like playing at the moment. Now my stomach not feeling well.. sianz.. I think I ate too much oily and fried food. Hope that it's not stomach flu again~ Lolz.. Tomrorow going to my Son's(Sean) hse for bbq.. can't wait.. it's been a long time I've been to a clas gathering.. I guess the last time I went was arhx.. Meli's birthday? Hmm.. which was last April? Bad Bad~ Lolz.. I wonder will I be slping tonight.. Juz feel so sick of school now.. dun feel like going back to school.. Hahahazz.. I still dun feel anxious about my tests or wadever.. haiz...
if i ain't got you|10:49 PM|
He||o.. Well Well.. I was in a rush today when I go to school.. Coz Darling happen to reach there early and he hasn't have his lunch.. So was I.. so I went to school 15 minutes earleir.. but then.. I'm still late and made Darling wait.. I am so sorry.. Also.. I was so in the hurry until I forgot to wear the ring for the first time.. I was feelin so guilty. And wad makes me feel more guilty is that my Darling actually bought me an Oreo Cheesecake from Baker's Inn.. He knows that's my favourite.. All of our grp memebers were late..and after they arrived.. we headed on to the labs and try out the Visual Studio.Net. It's tough lahz.. is liek all the programming tools we have to learn ourselves. Darling came oevr to my hse.. and we were like so sleepy and we juz slept.. then until dinner time I guess.. ArgHZ... Hahaz.. and Now whenever my mother sees Darling and when it's dinner time.. she will say " Eat, go Eat" (In Chinese) [even though Darling is not staying for dinner] Lolz.. Then he does not have a choice but to eat! Lolzzz... Also.. I called my uncle and wanted to borrow a Mahjong set from him.. and he GAVE me a mahjong table instead! Yea~ And no choice.. have to buy Mahjong tiles tomorrow.. hehez.. coz U know why? The girls are coming over to my hse! Overnight Mahjong! Yea! Namely, Yan Rong, Celeste and Lindy.. and guess wad.. Frederick and Darling joining us too~ But for staying over for the guys.. I'm not sure then... Hahaz... Yapz.. for now it's like that lo.. will update wad will happen tomorrow.. Oh Yah.. will be going KTV with the girls tomorrow first! Yea!
if i ain't got you|1:31 AM|
Thursday, March 04, 2004
gOoD moRnIng... Today it's already Thursday, time really flies.. term break is gonna be over soon.. and I thihnk the only thing I've done is to revise my OS quiz.. It's like 7 Chapters in all.. and the notes that the lecturer gives is kinda insufficient.. haiz.. have to do lotsa reading then. And I kinda forgot thast I will be having another Test.. which is Biz Com-->INterview.. 2 tests in one day! Sux like hell. LAter meeting my project mates at 1.30pm.. haiz.. dunnoe wad are we going to discuss then. It's not that I am having stress now.. Juz that I am too LAZY to think about it.. Hahahhazzz... guess I better get down to work soon.. I haven't done the tutorials for next week.. Maybe Sunday last minute do everything bahz~ Lolzzzz.... I've watched Something's Gotta Give yesterday.. it's sux... except the part when Keanu Reeves appear~ Wahahahhaa!!!
if i ain't got you|9:44 AM|
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
I am starting to feel how is it like to be an adult.. all those shit responsibilities and stuff. But I still feel that wad I am thinking of is only the tip of an ice-berg.. there will be more to come. And somehow or rather.. there might be some bad stuff approaching in years to come and I am getting prepared for it. I dun know for sure if it will turn out good but then.. it's better to be safe than sorry right? It's so hard to enjoy life now.. the more I enjoy, the more guilty I feel.. Although some of U might think that I came from a "filthy" rich family, and I do not have to worry, but think again.. Are my parents going to outlive me and provide me for all their lives? I might inherit some of their fortunes later in the end but wad makes u think that those assets can live for long? Some of U might think that rich ppl dun have worries but they still do.. My father slogged so hard and I won't dare to use his hard-earned money like water.. These few years.. I won't ask my mother for extra money unless it's necessary or for some school purpose.. I will not ask her any for leisure purpose.. Now my dad got me a car.. and at times.. I really dun feel it's necessary.. unless I am running errands for my family (helping my mum). Besides driving to school for convenient purpose, I dun see a need to drive my car to anywhere else.. Taking public transport might be so much cheaper and easier.. I always get lost halfway and used up so much time and petrol to go to the exact places I want. So wads the use of having my own car? I think it's more of bringing convenience to ppl than myself. Wadever~
if i ain't got you|10:26 PM|
Monday, March 01, 2004
I had a long day today... Is like although it's holiday, I still have to attend a lecture.. learning ASP.NET. Yea.. it's so much easier than ASP.. I was so so tired... really physically exhausted. Is like the day before, the girls came over my hse adn we stayed up till 5 plus.. then after that.. Darling and I went to Sentosa and had a short swim at the beach. Initially wanted to go East Coast, but it was not really that convenient.. so went to Sentosa. And it rained for a while.. waited till 5 plus then the rain stopped. Wanted to sun-tan but the sun was like no where when the rain stopped. So tired when I reeach home.. and I slept at about one last night.. woke up about 8 plus today.. then after my lesson, went to meet YAn Rong and Lindy.. We walked around the whole Orchard and crap alot as usual~ Sorry if I looked dead today girls~ I've really tried my very best to perk up. Went home about 8 plus today.. Arhz... tired tired~ I guess I will be turining in early tonight.. if not wake up late the next day!
Oh YAh!! Happy Birthday to my sis and Saifun!!! May all ur wishes come true k! Love Ya! Muackz!
if i ain't got you|10:37 PM|
